I feel the scream crawling out of my throat.

I'm transfering. Or hopefully I am if Purchase College ever gets their fucking shit together. They wont give me a copy of my transcript. I'm not even asking them to send it to Hunter for me. I just asked if I could get an officially sealed to student transcript so that I can send it to Hunter myself. I don't trust this school to mail it or do anything. And obviously I'm right to not do so since they won't even give me my own fucking transcript. I used to love this school, but right now it's frustrating me so much that I can't stand to be here. I want to scream so loudly, but I can't because the stupid dorm I'm in has courtesy hours, which basically means I have to be quiet all the time.

I think I'm just going to print out my own transcript and send it to Hunter and I'm hoping they'll take it even if it's an unofficial one. If I can't get into Hunter because they won't give me an official transcript then I'm not going to school. I refuse to stay here any longer and pay $15,000 for a shitty school that can't do anything right. I'm paying for shitty, unhealthy food, a campus full of construction, an incompetent mail room, workers who don't know how to do their job. It's so frustrating and I can't take it anymore. I feel like I'm being punished and I don't know why. I might as well be a college dropout.

Frustrating

Last night I stayed up writing a two page comparison on Joy Harjo's poem The Woman Hanging on the 13th Floor Window and Adrienne Rich's Diving into the Wreck. I really hate analyzing poetry and it took me forever to do. I went to the library to do it because I needed to focus and not be surrounded by distractions and I needed to print it. After that Jon called me saying he needed help on the Google homework. I was supposed to do it with Kyle so we all agreed to meet at Jon's. I didn't get back to my room until 130 and was really exhausted.

Stupidly I forgot to turn the volume back on my phone. I didn't hear my alarm and slept through my first class. Thankfully I woke up in time for my last two classes. Birth and Death wasn't bad, but Colloquium made me want to jump off a cliff. We did nothing in class and then I find out the paper I stayed up working on wasn't even due. It's on the syllabus, but she didn't realize we had off for Labor Day and didn't change it on the syllabus. She accepted it, but it still annoyed me that I didn't have to do it.

On a side note -- I'm really excited to come home this weekend. I hate the dentist, but I'm really glad to be in my nice soft bed and surrounded by my four cats. The bed here is so firm and uncomfortable even with the mattress pad on it.

First day back

First day back to school and it wasn't that great. All three classes that I have on Mondays and Thursdays seem like a lot of work. I really want to drop Intermediate French on Tuesdays, but I don't want to be stuck with just 12 credits. I have a flag on my account right now, so as of this moment I can't do anything, add/drop classes online. I'm going to try and see if I can do it through the registrar or at least see if they can help me out. Also I might have to transfer to Hunter because it's too expensive here. $15,000 versus like 2,000.

No side note tonight. Not in the greatest mood.