Hangings and cake

I hung out with Kaitlyn and Nicole today. Kaitlyn and I went over to Nicole's to help her with the cake for tomorrow's surprise birthday party for Kevin. It was a fun day. Had some yummy frosting and ended up helping clean Nicole's room. I ended up staying past midnight.

I helped Kathy, Nicole's mom, hang new curtains at one point. That was an adventure of trying not to fall off the couch, haha.

On a side note -- That red sweater is definitely not mine. I never owned a red sweater, but Nicole insisted that it's mine from way back in high school and that I had left it at her house. It's so not mine, but it's comfy so I ended up taking it.

A night at the Brew

Today I didn't wake up until 2pm. I really didn't do much, haha. I laid in bed like a lazy bum, reading for a long while until around 5 when Kyle texted me. He asked if I was free and would want to go to the Witches Brew. I said hell yeah! Haha. He picked me up around 9:30 and we headed out to the Brew, as Kyle likes to say.

We met up with his two friends Allison and Monica. They're both really nice and like Harry Potter too. It was a really fun time. I ordered an Iced Winter (vanilla flavored latte with marshmallows and whipped cream) and a blueberry scone. Their scones are sooo yummy. I was really tempted to get a Pink Angel (strawberry vanilla flavored drink), but I had never had one so I didn't want to end up not liking it. Maybe next time I'll be daring and take the risk of trying something new. Maybe. Haha.


Afterwards Kyle asked if I would be up for going to Long Beach. I was all for it since I've never been before. Allison took Monica home and said she'd meet us there. Lucky duck lives in Long Beach. I'm totally jealous. Kyle and I talked a lot the whole night just catching up on everything. I haven't gotten the chance to see him since we left school in May. We're making plan for a day trip in August where he'll give me and Kriz a tour of some awesome places on Long Island. He said he wants to take me to this coffee shop in Port Jeff called Cool Beans just cause I used to say that phase a lot in freshman year, haha. I took a few pictures, but it was foggy out.

Haha, couldn't resist, even though the spelling it wrong.

Kyle is really a nice guy. It was 1:30 when he got me back to my house. What I didn't realize was that when I hugged him goodbye my cell phone fell out of my pocket. I didn't realized until I had changed into my pjs. I used my house phone to call it thinking that I just had something covering it. Kyle picked up and said that he was in Valley Stream so he would drive back to give it to me. I felt really bad cause I know he's getting up early in the morning for a camping trip. I had no cash on me so I searched through all my change and managed to scrounge up 6 dollars to give him for gas money. It was close to 2:20 when he pulled up in front of my house. I felt so awful, but he was really nice about it and gave me another hug before leaving.

On a side note -- I think everyone should watch this anime miniseries because it's hysterical and each episode is like 5 minutes long. Hetalia Axis Powers!

"Cuz I get a thousand hugs from 10,000 lightening bugs as they try to teach me how to dance."

Today was fun fun fun. Kriz, Joi, Sumara and I went to South Street Seaport. It's so nice there. I really wish I could have an apartment there, but I'm sure it's like super expensive. It started off as a really nice day, but then started raining. Sumara eventually had to leave because she had previous plans. Joi wanted to do a photoshoot today. It was a lot of fun. Kriz and I got to be our weird selves. There's this store that is super super cute at the mall. It's called Stone Flower. There's like three different versions of the store at the mall and they're all hiring. Kriz and I put in applications and we have an interview Thursday at 5. I hope we get it. I don't know if they would consider me since I only have like a month left before I go back to school.

There were so many cute things I wanted to buy. There were these gorgeous peep-toe shoes that thankfully they didn't have in my size or else I would have bought them. I did buy thise awesome black watch, Kriz has a brownish one. Her watch looks kinda steampunk. I also bought this pretty purple top. I'm trying to save money and it's not working, haha.

On a side note -- I love this song. Thanks to Jon. The official music video is really cute, but the embedded html was disabled so I settled for this video.

Rainshowers and tattoos

Today I woke up and wanted to go back to sleep. It was raining and I didn't want to leave the warm comfort of my bed. However I promised my mom I would go to the bank to deposit her check and mine. So I finally got out of bed and headed to the bus stop. I stopped at a small store next to the bank to get a pair of leggins and a birthday card for my dad's great grandson. I deposited the check and took out 80 from the ATM. I got back on the bus and went to Woodhaven. There's this new tattoo place, Beaver Tattoo, that opened in January. It's a really clean and sterile place. They were really nice too. The receptionist guy told me there was a hour and a half wait and that he would put on a DVD if I wanted to stay. So we ended up watching South Park episodes until it was time for me to get tattooed. It wasn't expensive at all. It was 50, which is their minimum. The place up at my school told me it would be 70. I'm glad I waited until I got home to get it.

Let it be (from the Beatles) on my right wrist.

I'm happy I got it. I've been wanting it for a long while now.

On a side note -- I've discovered that I need my tattoos to be equal. I started with one on my right hip, so I got one on my left hip. I have one on my side and am eventually going to get one on the other side. The same thing with my wrist. I need to have one on each side. I don't know why.

Mermaids, Cyclones, Corndogs, and Music

SirenFest 2009

It was my first time at Siren Fest and it was definitely a good first impression. I'm excited for 2010. I went with Joi, Kriz, and Sumara. We had problems with the F train, but we eventually managed to get there. It was so much fun.Joi, me, mermaid, Kriz.

We got free pictures with the MetroPCS mermaid. She was pretty pale for sitting out in the sun. We got a lot of free stuff actually. Mardi Gras beads, free drinks. I really enjoyed the band Bear Hands. A lot of the bands were really good. We walked around Coney Island for awhile inbetween the bands. I love it. It was my first time at Coney Island and I definitely want to go back.

Me, Joi, Kriz, and Sumara.

We piled into a photoboth machine. We tried the color one first, but it was either broken or just not on. Haha, it was awesome. I've never done it before. Kriz, Joi and I decided to go on the Cyclone. Holy crap. It may not look bad, but I thought I was going to have a heart attack once it started. The seat lock things don't go down all the way so whenever we went down a hill I was slip forward into it. It was fun, but scary as shit.

From the back.
Sumara, Joi, me, Kriz

Best day. <3

It started out nice...

My weekend started out nice and ended terribly. Let's recap.

Friday:
Kriztille slept over. It was really awesome. We say Public Enemies during the day. Great movie and Johnny is so hot in it. We walked around Forest Hills for a bit and I ended up buying a shirt at this cute little store. We came home. My mom made meatloaf for Kriztille because she loves it and later on I made daddy nachos. They're awesome. We stayed up watching random episodes of Bleach, The Great Debate, and a Swiddish movie called Let the Right One In. It's really good, and there's a book of it, so I want to read it. Gizmo loved Kriztille and kept coming over to be petted. She even slept on the bed with us.

Saturday:
We woke up early to go to Forest Hill's. I had an appointment with Sal to get my hair done and Kriz managed to get hers done as well. Her hair looks super cute. I was getting a cut and color, so he had to put the color in and let it set for 40 minutes. I fell asleep during that time, but a text from Jon woke me up. I really love my hair. It's so much shorter compared to what it was before. After Sal's we went to the mall. Kriztille was looking for a cute, dressy top and I had planned not to buy anything. That didn't happen. I ended up buying this cute, white and blue halter top at Papaya. I impressed myself with not buying anything else in other stores. Jaleesa had her hair appointment too and had been planning on meeting up with us. However her appointment took forever. Kriztille decided to go home and I went back to my house. On my walk home I stopped at Key Food to get a veggie platter for the picnic Sunday. They didn't have any. So instead I bought a cookie sheet and baked cookies. After dinner Jaleesa stopped by for an hour and a half. It was really good seeing her. I miss her a lot. After she left I started baking the cookies.

Today:
Jaleesa went back to Maryland this morning so she couldn't come to the picnic. I waited a half hour for the E train and then it turns out to be a local train, so I was late meeting up for the picnic. It was fun. There was a lot of food and everyone seemed to like my cookies. I was really tired though and I started getting a headache. Around 4 my mom calls asking what time I'll be home. I said I didn't know, but that it wasn't going to be super later because I have work in the morning. I said that I would definitely be home before 10. She made a fuss on the phone about that and we just ended the conversation. Everyone was getting ready to head over to the swing set and then later to Strawberry Fields (which I've always wanted to go). I got another text from my mom asking about when I was coming home.

So because of that and my headache I decided I should leave. I was really annoyed at my mom at this point. I was with a whole bunch of people, she knew where I was, and yet she was still being like that. However, Brenda, who never let's my mom know where she's at, is allowed to come home late or just not come home. Friday night she slept at some guys house and of course my mom doesn't say anything. So I was upset about that because it seems unfair. I got hot on my walk home so I took my sweater off and put it in my bag. I walk in and right away she asks where my sweater is. Common sense would tell her it's in the bag, but no I had to show her it was in the bag. I must have made some kind of face because she asked me if I was mad. I said no, but that I was annoyed. She asked me if I was annoyed at her and I said a little bit. She asked why and I told her. I had said I would be home before 10, but that wasn't good enough so I left early when I didn't want to.

We got into a small arguement because she said she just doesn't like me in the city late, but I was with people and it wasn't late. I eventually just went to my room because I didn't want to fight with her. I started putting my stuff away and chaged my cloths when I got that choking feeling, like when it's hard for you to swallow. Then I just started crying. I don't even really understand why. Normally it takes a lot for me to cry so getting into an arguement isn't something I cry about. I really don't get it. It didn't last long, but it made my headache worse. I hate that I have work tomorrow. I want a new job.

No side note today.

Lets try this

Ok, lets try this. I'm going to put my last three days in one post. Hopefully it wont be too long.

Sunday:
I didn't do much. Nothing that's really noteworthy. However there was an incident at the laundromat. My mom and I went to do laundry. After we had started the washers we took a seat by the video games cause that was all that was open. I didn't have a book with me so I started playing solitaire on my phone. I really love that game. This guy, maybe mid to late 30s sits down next to me. Here's what happened next.

Him: That poker?
Me: Nope, it's solitaire.
Him: You that bored that you playing solitaire on your phone.
Me: Yeah kinda, but I like solitaire.
Him: You seen Transformers?
Me: Nope
Him: Do you want to?
Me: Not really.
Him: You here with your moms?
Me: Yup
Him: What you doing after?
Me: Going home
Him: Do you have to? Don't you got any free time to yourself?
Me: I do, but I don't want to spend it with you.

Just a note for you guys. Don't try to hit on girls at a laundromat. Anyway the guy was super creepy.

Monday:
Mostly another long shitty day at work. I was on my feet most of the time and a rep brought lunch, which was nasty so I barely ate. I get into work and Susan calls me into her office. She tells me that I don't have to work on Wednesdays anymore. She didn't tell me why, but assured me that it had nothing to do with my work. Ok fine. I was annoyed, but there's really not much I can say to that. So I've decided to look for a second job. I applied to a post about Teacher Assistants at Sylvan Learning Center. I hope I get it. It'll give me good practice for when I become a teacher. After I left work I stopped at the little news store on my block for a drink. While I was in there I noticed a really fat cat just laying on the magazine stacks. It was pretty cute. I get home to find out that my mom got into a car accident while she was out. The front end of the car is totalled and we might not be able to fix the car. Thankfully my mom is ok. She's just bruised pretty badly on her chest and shoulder.

Today:
I get into work today and go into the filing room to put my bag down and start pulling charts for tomorrow's appointments. However, there was a young guy in the room already. Now I know why I no longer have Wednesdays. It infuriates me. His name is Gene, he works part times and his mother is a friend of Susan's. Can you guess why he got hired? He works Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays (which I was never offered when I was interviewed.) Maybe if he did some work instead of complaining I wouldn't mind him being there, but he didn't do shit. Barely did any work today and complained about being bored. He also got to leave around 340. I didn't get to leave until 530, a half hour later than normal, because I got stuck assisting with epis again. It just pisses me off.

On a side note -- I really hope my body isn't becoming used to getting up early. Everyday that I didn't have work last week (Thurs, Fri, Sat, and Sun) I woke up first at 8ish and then again around 10am. I miss sleep. I haven't had a day where I could sleep however long I wanted. I really hope I can sleep in tomorrow without my stupid body waking up.

“About the woodlands I will go / To see the cherry hung with snow.” -- A.E. Housman

I carried this giant downstairs and out to the car. We took it to the repair place in Bayside. I'm without a tv for awhile, which normally I would be ok with. However, there's a James Bond marathon tomorrow and I can't sleep without some kind of background noise.

Today I woke up at 10am because my mom needed my help with getting stuff out of the car and cleaning the front porch. It sucked. I really wanted to sleep later, but oh well. While I was at the tv repair place Jon texted me asking if I was at work. I said no, but I was out at the moment. Turns out he had to drive his mom to Glendale, where his dad works. It's near me, only like seven minutes away (according to his gps), so he said he would stop by.


He came around five and ended up having dinner with us. It was really good, my mom made london broil and french fries, with asparagus (which I don't like). We talked for awhile before deciding to drive over to Eddie's Sweet Shop for dessert. I love Eddie's it's such an awesome ice cream shop. We sat at the corner and Jon tried some different ice cream flavors. You get to try a spoonful for free. Pretty sweet.



I tried the Cherry Vanilla decided on that. He tried a few others including Tutti Frutti, before deciding on Cherry Vanilla. I got a two scope Cherry Vanilla with marshmallows, whipped cream, and a cherry on top. He got the same just without marshmallows. Copycat. It was soooo yummy!

After finishing the ice cream we were both super full so we sat for awhile talking about random stuff. Fun times. Jon didn't want to go back home so we sat in his car for a bit just talking and listening to music. Really random, but we saw this girl, Catherine Davis, that I went to high school. She met Jon once before when she visited Lauren at Purchase. It was kinda weird, because she gave us a strange look before waving. I guess she thinks it's weird to talk in a car? Haha, I don't really know.

Eventually we drove back to my place. We still haven't decided on July 4 plans yet, but he's gonna let me know. I really hope there's some kind of bbq because I've been dying for some good bbq food.

It was a good day and I'm glad I got to go out. I love hanging out with Jon because we always find ways to make doing nothing fun.

On a side note -- I'm getting sick of all the fireworks people are setting off in my neighborhood. I get that it's the holiday, but don't be an asshole and set them off around midnight and/or later. The last week people have been setting them off super late and it's really annoying if I'm trying to sleep especially if I have work the next day.

Color Me Disappointed.

All week I have been looking forward to going to dinner tonight. Milleridge Inn is my absolute favorite place to eat and I love the little village there. That's where my mom decided to we were going to eat. It was going to be her treat because she wanted to take my dad out to celebrate father's day and his birthday.

I didn't have work today. It was great. I stayed up almost until 230, but I was tired so I couldn't stay up later. What was not great was waking up at 830 for no reason and then waking up again at 1030. It sucked. It was my day off and I did not want to get up early. I forced myself back to sleep only to get woken up an hour later by my phone. My mom called and told me to come downstairs because she wanted to show me something. Apparently my dad got some catalog in the mail and it had scrubs in it. They were pretty nice, and not too expensive. I decided not to go back to sleep because I was far too awake to try. I had a bowl of Honey Nut Cheerios. A big bowl. It was awesome. While I was eating my mom hands me the menu to Lenny's Clam Bar in Howard Beach. She tells me we're not going out to eat because my dad didn't feel well. Bull shit. That's his excuse when he wants to get out of something.

So I was pretty upset at this point, but I tried not to act like it. I had been looking forward to Milleridge Inn all week and instead I get shitty Lenny's. Lenny's used to be pretty good, but the last few times I've had it it was awful. I predicted right. I ordered rigatoni with chicken and it was awful. First thing, I'm not found of marinara sauce. Second thing the chicken was too dry. I have a massive stomach ache from dinner.

Anyway, my mom took me out to get another set of scrubs today and of course Brenda tagged along. She had errands or whatever that she needed to do and of course she can't take a bus to get there when all she needed to do was go to CVS. Whatever. It was pretty annoying and juvenile that she went outside five minutes before we left so that she could sit in the front seat. I didn't say anything.

On our way out to Lake Success (that's where I buy my scrubs) we stopped at the post office to mail out some stuff. My mom asked Brenda to run them in while we waited in the car. She comes back, closes the door. It doesn't shut all the way so she yanks it open and slams it. Unnecessary. Something happened to the door, I'm not too sure what, but she laughed and was like no one saw me break the door. I said that there was no reason to slam the door that hard and she ignored me. I'm getting used to that. I wasn't planning on saying anything, but I remembered that my dad tends to get on my mom's case about the care a lot. Him finding out about a possible broken door wouldn't go well.

So we get out there and my favorite lady was there. She's the sweetest lady. She always remembers me cause she says extra small everytime she sees me. She keeps telling my mom that I'm a sweet girl just because I always say please and thank you to her. I got a nice pair of black scrub bottoms (they're from Dickies, which I didn't know made scrubs) and this nice white scrub top with light blue, purple, pink, dark blue and red circles and squares printed on it. It'll go well with my purple and lilac scrubs.

Everything was going pretty well until we got back in our neighborhood to the Rite Aid. My mom took Brenda there because she said they had something she wanted there. My mom told her that she can get her prescription filled at Rite Aid too instead of CVS because she's not driving from one to the other when Rite Aid has a pharmacy. We were about a block away and talking about dinner. Brenda thought we were talking about a place called London Lenny's instead of the clam bar. She said she wouldn't order the lasagna there cause it was bad and then she said, right Mandy.

I said I'd never had the lasagna there. I haven't eaten at London Lennys since my confirmation. And she starts getting upset and insisting that I'd had it before. She was yelling and said she wasn't stupid and that I had had her leftovers when she went out to dinner with someone and that I didn't like it. I got annoyed and shouted back saying that sorry I didn't remember that. She made a big scene as my mom was parking cursing and yelling saying she had to get out of here and stormed into Rite Aid. I started venting to my mom. I remember having the lasagna now. It was a few days after I came home from school in May. I never knew that it was from London Lenny's and I tend to have a shitty memory. However, there was absolutely no need for her to have acted that way. My mom agreed with me and said that Brenda can't keep acting that way or one day my mom was going to come back at her during one of her fits. I told her I wasn't going to sit there and get yelled at for no reason and she agreed that I don't have to. My mom just doesn't like to fight so a lot of times she keeps things that bother her to herself or she'll wait until we're alone to talk about it. Usually when we go out (just us, which is rare now that Brenda tags along everywhere) she'll talk about how Brenda upsets her or how something my dad said upset her. She vents to me a lot, which she needs. She used to vent to Eileen too, but now Eileen always takes Brenda's side.

I have a doctor's appointment next week. I see the gyno and my mom has to to drive me out there. If Brenda decides she's tagging along I'm going to tell her not to. The last time I went to see my doc she tagged along for no reason. I don't need her going to my doctor's with me. I can't get there through public transportation so I don't mind my mom coming, but I don't need her there too. Honestly it bothers the shit out of me that she has to go everywhere with us. I'm really only home for the summer and like one month for winter break and a week for spring break. She gets to have my mom the rest of the time. While I'm home I want to spend time with my mom without her and it's like impossible. It's getting harder and harder for me to keep my mouth shut around her. Nothing is getting better, it's getting worse.

She told my mom that I'm a spoiled brat because my dad gives me everything I want. Not true at all. A lot of the times I pay him back for stuff that he gets me. He bought my a DSLR camera because I needed it for school. I paid it back. He bought my first two sets of scrubs and I said I'd pay him back when I get paid (still haven't), but he told me no. He said I don't need to because he wanted to buy them as a gift for getting the job. If I help him out around the house he'll give me some money, even when I tell him he doesn't have to. There a times when he'll ask if I need anything or if I mention something I like that he'll try and buy it. I don't really consider that being spoiled. My dad is also like that with my mom. If she needs it he'll try and get it.

She might be saying that because he's not like that with her, but why should he be? She's not his daughter through blood or even through the law (I'm legally his daughter) plus she's 40 years old. But he's helped her. He paid for all her lawyer fees and shit when everything happened 16 years ago. He gave her money when she first got out and was stuck in Michigan, he bought her plane ticket to NY. He gave her $200 to buy herself some nice cloths so she can get a job, but according to my mom she spend it on other things. He said he's not giving her anymore money, which I agree with. I needed the scrubs for work and I didn't have any money so he helped me out. She's be in NY for about 5 months already and doesn't have a job still. She really hasn't been looking. I've been home for about 2 months and oh guess what, I have a job. I looked everyday for one and it worked out. I need to stop ranting. I'm turning into a horrible person with this mean thoughts.

My mom told her that I wasn't spoiled. I'm glad my mom sticks up for me. It makes me happy. What doesn't make me happy is when we came home. I went to show him my new scrubs. He was getting ready to lay down so I waited and as he was laying down he started saying how depressed he was and stuff like that. My mom came in and he started talking about how she should make arrangements at Jimmys (the funeral home nearby) and about how he didn't want to come home if he went to the hospital. Real depressing stuff. I didn't want to listen anymore so I went up to my room otherwise I would've started crying. I don't want to think about him dying or antyhing like that.

After awhile I came down to see how my mom was. I figured she would be upset and I was right. I found her crying in the bathroom. Apparently my dad was talking about giving up and stuff and he did it last year when he turned 84. Obviously he doesn't like that thought of getting old, but a lot of people in his family lived well into their 90s. His mom lived until she was 102. So he's got longevity on his side. It's just upseting to hear him talk that way.

I hadn't planned on a long post, especially since I really didn't do anything today. I probably won't be doing anything tomorrow. Apparently my mom and I have to start looking for one of his old film camera's that we hid away. I can't remember where we put it and he's obsessing about it. We're also going to take my tv out to the repair place that fixed it a few years ago. Hopefully that weird white filmy screen will go away and my tv will be good as new.

On a side note -- I'm going to try really hard to start writing again this weekend. I really miss writing, I just haven't had the time.

Wanted : Massage

This is me -- tired, frowny, and slouching -- when I get home from work. Today was like ten times worse. However, I got to sit more than stand today. Because Friday is a holiday we had many people schedule appointments for today and tomorrow. Thankfully I don't work tomorrow cause there were more schedule for Thursday.
It was super busy and there were so many annoying patients.
1. This woman comes up to the front desk and complains that she's been waiting for over two hours and is going to get coffee. She bitches about Starbucks being too far away and that deli coffee isn't good. (Not true because I've had some really good deli coffee). I told her there was a cafe up the block, only a few buildings away. It's called the Local Shop. She comes back complaining even more about how the coffee is so expensive and blah blah blah. The woman is a liar. She had only been waiting for 45 minutes not two hours. We check everyone in and the time they come is written down. I got a coffee at the Local Shop before work and it only cost me $1.75. I don't know how that is expensive especially when she goes to Starbucks all the time. A small anything at Starbucks is at least $3.

(You can so tell I like purple just by looking at my room.)

2. Everyone, (Rosie, Danielle, Susan, Dr. Leff, Terri and myself) wanted to slap this one woman. Her appointment was scheduled for 1230. She called ten times. TEN! asking how far behind Dr. Leff was running and when she should come in because she didn't want to wait. When the hell do you go to a doctor's office and not wait?! I think the only time you wouldn't wait would be if you had the first appointment of the day. Seriously woman learn to wait like everyone else and don't call ten times asking the same thing.

The train rides today were awful. Going into work and coming home from work I was stuck with screaming babies. I sucked.

For some reason after dinner I decided to take out my tongue ring. I haven't done that since I was pierced. It feels weird. I'm leaving it out and letting it close up. I've been thinking about doing the same with my lip piercing, but I haven't completely decided on that one yet.

I started and finished making Jaleesa's collage. I didn't have construction paper or anything good to work with so I took off the top to my dad's Pelligrino box. Then I decided I should write her a letter. So the package includes the card I was going to send her at school, a small collage, and a short letter. I miss her a lot. Last summer we pretty much spent everyday together and now she's in Maryland with her mom. Suckssss.

I need a massage for my feet and my back, lower back specifically. I took Aleive last night before I went to sleep for my back (and secretly hoping I'd sleep better, but I didn't). My back felt fine when I woke up this morning, but it started bothering me again during work and after work. Blah.

On a side note -- I really like the new Dell commercial, the lolipop lolipop one.